It is easy to talk about universal consciousness, galactic and multi-dimensional awakening from a personal point of view. In practicality awakening is a tremendously painful process when experienced ‘locally’ (this term locally came from not me but the spirit team). Thanks to them I do not need grammarly to correct my sentences.
For most people starting our in spirituality, the primary focus is on their personal aura, their inner peace, their healing from negativity, their emotional wellbeing and private mind-fulness. They learn how to channel reiki or energy for personal benefit, to heal their cells, to reduce symptoms of diseases first, perhaps a headache we are feeling or sensing now all of a suddenly, like I am at the back of the left side of my head (and I am asked to type that too), when we are on our smartphones, computers or wifi systems (which is a huge ource of headaches actually if we pay attention to it…develop sensitivity). Then we try healing our surroundings such as their personal crystals, which some people also use for personal relaxation and peace (until we do not any more). Listening to soothing sounds, music, positive mantras, satsangas (courses and discourses) from gurus and masters who speak soothing and enlightening words in meditative tone is hypnotic and beautiful. It helps us feel aligned with a higher consciousness, by taking a few minutes off the daily thinking process that our mind is constantly being engaged in – plugged into.
This reminds me of satsangas from various highly enlightened masters that I had attened several years ago, one being Osho Siddharth and Osho Shailendra (biological brother of Osho Rajneesh and their commune partners) and another being Brahmarshi Patriji of Pyramid Spiritual Societies movement, both of which I had joined if only for a while. In their satsangas never felt like there is someone ‘else’ talking to me, only that they were saying, infact- word to word, my thoughts, as if telepathicaly, and it always felt very strange and like a lucid dream, where my mind is revealed to me exactly as is…every word, and every gap between two words, exactly so…a mirror. The entire one hour to several hours plus satsangas actually were a tremendous streaming of consciousness flowing as if from my own mind but in their ovice. They were not the only ones though, many teachers, spiritualists, have felt the same, like they were inside me in my mind. There is never a difference of thought or opinion at all on one hand, which is good as no conflict ever arises with them, except when y ego sets in. But on the other hand, it feels unreal, as if it is merely my mind and nothing outside, or noone outside. ‘Is that all there is?’ – I wondered, the end of knowledge? Surely I am not the ONE or any enlighetned one at least. Am I sleeping in ‘kryonic’ state on a spaceship, plugged into a computer system and dreaming this world up magically while I am sleeping. How else can I explain the many projections everyday even of people? (Heal myself, I am told as the headache returns and this computer gets unbearable, I feel the heat of the wifi in my cheekbones even as I continue to type, eager to record my thoughts, if only for my own records).
Truly there is noone to know and nothing to know but the knower – and that is all the matrix can ever teach us. With these spiritual masters this was confirmed. But this is not how it feels when we are interacting with other people on a daily basis around us. With the person next door who barely talks to us, with the person in the next cubicle in the office, with the acquaintence you fell out from because of an argument…there are differences at a superficial level because we are not meditating and channeling pure consciousness. We struggle to be in alignment, to be understood, to be felt and to feel love, or at times even plain and basic intelligence from some people, as if they are not real, not there, not interested…like the many…many people in the matrix shown to Neo in the movie, simply holographically manifest or generated programs (from all walks of life).
Our daily struggle, relationship blockages, family situations, economic risks and financial crisis, our strife at work, career challenges and group dynamics affects us all the time while we live in the matrix. These are what feeds the matrix around us, taking energy our of us and delivering that energy to others seemingly around us, empowering the matrix so that we are controlled, or feel controlled even if we actually are not. So that we feel entangled and engrossed in ‘maya’ or illusion on a constant basis.
Self empowerment and personal healing, therefore becomes the most important beginning point for our personal ascension. It brings our energy back to our center, within us, reminding us that it is our mental energy projecting outwards creating the simulation of our world, our universe.
Strangely though, however many times we may try to cleanse our bodies, our mind, our emotional self, our chakras and auric layers, it is still difficult to get ‘rid of’ all the negative energy.
We want to feel positive but instead we find that the more we cleanse our own personal life negativity the more in alignement we are coming with universal conciousness to channel healing from, and the more we are being empowered with the mission of ‘planetary healing’. Shortly we turn our attention outwards to the state of the world and the more we do that, the more depressed and disillusioned we begin to feel all over again. Our little private bubble of personal contentment has burst finally (and thankfully so). We realize there is tremendous negative energy still there, no matter how much personal cleansing we conduct upon ourselves.
The negative energy is not just in our personal aura (or so it seems)…as empaths we feel sensitive to the state of our world and our planet, the cries of the animals murdered and trees killed and the soil and stones blasted off daily, the forest fires and the climate change and global warming, the melting of our poles. We are uncomfortable all over again. And we should be.
We can be as vegan and spiritual and as eco-friendly as we care to be in our personal bubbles (shrinking bubbles, they said) one through which we are shielding and coping, ways of staying ‘sane’ and normal in this crazy world. But how can we escape from that negativity that we sense so very daily around us as we go shopping in the supermarkets full of chopped body parts of murdered creatures wrapped in innocent looking plastic bags, as we walk down the road, as we interact with others who are blissfully or willingly ignorant? This frustrates us, unbearably. Why can we all not be enlightened, not all be awakened fully, why not all be if not awakened or enlightened at least conscious of very simple and basic things, like how not to kill someone? If everyone is a projection and all life a dream, why is it so that there is today, a single person who is angry, negative, evil, cruel or violent around us. Does this mean out inner self is not yet healed in totality? In short we are not ‘Home’ yet.
When we begin our spiritual lourney, at first we learn a few things such as meditation, affirmations, spells, chakra work, channeling energy, and for a few years it is beautiful… we are brimming with joy, success, enlightenment, happiness, bliss and peace and too eager to ‘heal our world and make it a better place’ as Michael Jackson would sing. Soon we realize it is not that very easy. Was Michael Jackson a perfect person, or is any one of us perfect in any way, any one of us, without negativity, without some form of it anyways? Our intentions may be grand but are we from within totally pure and free of negativity? (And for this question we ned to be entirely honest and go really deep inside). If we are not entirely free of negativity within, not complete, not really happy, how do we hope to manifest a perfect universe or even a happy world, a simulation – without completing the great work, this world within us to be healed first.
As Within, So Without – is not just about Intention or thoughts, that would merely be Air and Fire element in healing. Our emotion and behavior are the Water and Earth through which our reality condenses from spirit to matter into the dreamworld we live in, heaven or hell or somewhat both, mid-way…but looking at the world, taking an honest and fully informed look at it, our earth does not resemble heaven or mid-way even. Why would that be so?
It is said that the road to ‘hell’ is paved with good intentions. Obviously good intentions are not enough and merely the beginning but left to their own they may not manifest, we need to really put our heart and soul into it a hundred percent, through and through and work with our own behavior in this body or with any other body we might have, and we need to carry on our inner work with full sincerity and be honest with ourselves.
If we were ascending we will not be seeking a destination that is Ascension, not seeking a heaven above or desperate for light and love, for peace or bliss as a goal, an objective for ourselves, for our personal motivation, but selflessly attuned to the work we are undertaking. If we were to be dedicated to a destination called heaven, whether on earth or in the sky, one where we will be ‘permitted’ to enter or a selected few ‘selected’ for, then how different would we be to the billions of humans who are following religion solely for their goal or hope for being allowed into the sacred destination of the holy ones or their master Jesus or God, or ascended levels of creator, into a perfect place where they can live happily for all eternity, forgiven and allowed into the heavenly realms surrounding the thrones of their God or master/ deity? How different would we be if our Ascension be for our own peace and bliss as we leave the world and all its trauma and suffering behind for others to endure, for others to suffer, for others to even be punished in ‘hell’ with?
As spiritual being who have kindness and love in their hearts how can we allow even one being to suffer to be in pain or to be punished in hell while we ascend to our higher planes and close our hearts to the world below that we are proudly and hurriedly leaving behind in our quest on our multidimensional spaceships or with our twin-flames and angels who carry our tired souls off to another world even as this one is destroyed and going down under? (‘Karma’ my mind says, ‘we deserve it’…but ‘really’, says my heart – are we not able to forgive ourselves and heal each other?)
Surely this is not what awakening looks like to those of us who are empaths and are awakening today. To some of us the feeling of suffering feels as terrible to ourselves as it does to another person, one who is suffering without us in the matrix, or within us in reality. The demons and devils are within, so are the angels and deities of perfect love and light, and the billions and trillions who suffer each year, our victims, our self. We feel as if we suffer with them, a part of us does – a large part of us…gigantic infact. If we are united as one being, one soul, one universal consciousness, then how do we plan to abandon our own loved ones so gleefully and escape this condition that we call our world? (my guides are asking me to type the word Mahadi, I have never used this word before).
In my lucid dream last night I was given a diagram of Ascension, starting with the present solar system, our sun, then a path leading to another sun, probably Sirius – once again for the second time reinforcing Pleiedian and Arcturian or Galactic shift, following which there were two more levels or layers, two more paths, two more suns, the names of which were written but my attention went around them… outside of this…where there was a pitch dark , black space, the word written was ‘Mahamaya’ to the right and ‘Enlightenment’ below. This seems confusing at first but is not so, because in my previous posts I had written that to know the darkness (light on darkness) that is where enlightenment begins.
Mahamaya is a term described by ancient spiritualists from India or Vedic pholosophers of advaita (non-duality) as the great cosmic creatrix, the manifest and unmanifest energy of the universe, the potentiality that is infinity in appearance, unreal or illusion at best but still there, still significant, still omnipresent. It is this energy that everyone worships all over the world, as the creator, as God, as Goddess, as the supreme cause..as consciousness. Energy unconscious becoming conscious….it seems to be around us, but is it really within us? Is it really just one mind presenting many people, many animals, many trees, many planets and stars, many galaxies, many dimensions, many planes of consciousness, many universes, many beings of spirit, many masters, many selves? Could it all be – just an illusion, just a grand cosmic dream? Could it all merely (and regrettably) be a computer generated simulation at this solar level or any other level where we are ascending to? These are honest questions I ask without any concrete answers as yet.
If it is so, then why do we cry for our planet (sometimes I type plant instead of planet, a Freudian slip perhaps, my mind telling me things are not what they seem, an industrial plant, a machine world or an organic plant – there is a difference). We want to heal our earth which is certainly a simulation, but are we all just programs, all living beings mere simulation, our bodies, emotions, thoughts, all our suffering an illusion? If so, there is a hope of peace here that all those who suffered did not really suffer in truth, that it was merely a dream. But we felt it nevertheless.
We are empaths, healers and love based consciousness focused, simple and humble individuals who want there to be peace, kindness and a better world. That is why we hope to ascend, to the better universe, and for this matrix to fully ‘open up’ and fall apart like a dream ends, we cannot bear the untruth of suffering any longer and wish it would end just like Alice in Wonderland, calling out the cards of absurd reality for what they are, just a (plain) pack of cards, queens, kings …and all. In a world of truth, no one should be crying or in pain, noone abused or killed, no rape, no eco-cide, no destruction, only conscious beings who co-exist in peace, connected through love and light, for anything below that is simply meaningless and absurd and makes no sense whatsoever. There is no place for evil in a true world, it can only be untruth, duality, simulation, maya, and at least that is what I hope it is.
We can only believe and try to pray, heal or improve our awareness levels to a planetary conciousness, through all this pain and suffering of the world, feeling it in us, sensing and not ignoring it, realizing something through it, something very wrong….working with it… not ignoring it..but learning. From then on we progress to a galactic consciousness…and hope that with this awakening of consciousness there will (still) be an awakening of the real self, the one within, who remains awake inside – from this dream to the truth – that to me is Ascension… at least for now.