Ascension Blocks: Selfishness vs Earth Healing

What I keep repeatedly seeing is the same thing as before – the same thing seen years ago, not much change. People DO NOT CARE ABOUT EARTH. They just want to USE earth a little more, regenrate soil so they can exploit it even more…not because they love the planet….they love themselves. They want it all for them – human.

Have we ever done anything selflessly for other creatures, without trying to own land and to exploit the animals and birds…out if just the feeling for the planet, for others – for other species, not just the human race?

No – what we humans want to dig for is FOOD as if we are hungry all of the time. We want to own land, have less factory farming, less fossil fuels, not because we love our planet – it is because we love ourselves. We want to continue ownership of this planet as if our ancestors who killed other animals and destroyed nature through hunting, wars and deforestation were the real deal – they started owning our planet and now we must also buy and sell land, rent and lease land, borrow and steal land.

This land is just another RESOURCE for human beings.

Most people are so crazy about food, they have a lot of extra flesh in their bodies and still eat more out of habit, because three meals a day – we are programmed by the matrix to COMPLY. We do not even need it most of the time. But people these days are ONLY TALKING ABOUT FOOD. Anyone wants to check or test if we can meditate and go without food for a bit of time? No. They want Food System Change – planet based not because they care about animals, but because they want to revolutionise food industry and save resources.

Similarly when I used to organise EARTH Healing Network rituals for healing of planet – to plant crystals into earth, back to our soil or in oceans – to make intentions to heal our planet – all they cared about was – what is in it for ME.
They ALWAYS asked:
Will I get a wish fulfilled?
Will I have romance and sex?
Will I get a job or money?
A car, a house..more fashion?

They would not want to give those crystals away either most of the time, to earth – but keep it for themselves – after all it is worth some money, and it ‘gives wishes’. Not unless I supplied the stones for free. Thankfully I realised we do not even need to buy crystals any more, and contribute or fund exploitation of earth. I stopped trading in them.

But not those people – they came for all those earth healing rituals because to them earth healing meant – HOW TO HEAL OURSELVES BY USING EARTH’S ENERGY.

All the time – it was the same damn thing with people – frustration because it is still the same damn thing. Similar pattern, same story ..continued. But why?

We want to ‘Conserve’ other species, as humans – like Noah in his ark – a couple of them, on or two of each kind, to reproduce, make it two…and then they will establish a new earth…one where they have selected whom to kill, whom to breed, whom to keep in zoos, whom to keep in farms, whom to keep at home. Because thet are humans – the guardians the caretakers, the controllers. ‘Really good human-beings.’

These climate change earth activists too have ZERO interest in earth. They are interested in THEMSELVES. In Human world, their food, their future, their children, their own economy, their systems, their regeneration – not of earth, but to make soil better, to make air better – to make planet more liveable for them to continue being the whole and soul of the planet, the gods and goddesses who walk over earth – as Lords as Ladies – or simply as Humans who need to survive.

Bye bye organised religion, bye bye Wicca – Hello Climate change earth activism – same thing really!

What the hell!

EARTH =HEART is a palindrome for a reason. We do not need to heal it for a reason. To get something out of it is our heart chakra blocked.

Ascension is not happening on this planet here, because we are yet to evolve into a heart centered civilisation as humankind.

Think about it:

I am seeing other Human beings in their Ascended forms, am I?

Lyrans, Sirians, Pliedians, Arcturians – really?

Probably a toad can have an ascended self….why humans only?

But no we talk about Ascended masters and Ascended beings as if they are all going to be human souls ascending into the higher Matrix – more and more ego of humans – more and more self deception. Let us be aware that when we leave this planet we may not meet our human relatives at all in ascended forms or as spirits or beings in other dimensons. Maybe we are going to meet beings who are so different, so uch more wonderful than we imagined, not some humans with some artficial wings in a human owned heaven – but something completely UNLIKE humans.

Not a bearded human faced God, not a human skinned Goddess. Siting up on their divine thrones will be no Laxmi, no Parvati, no Maya in human body or form, no Athena, no Diana, no Shiva with a garland of snakes to control them, no Krishna playing flutes for any Radha or Mirabai…no Archangel Michael with a human body and two great big wings for special effects…gone are all our human lies. All our religions, to them we say goodbye.

No Wicca, No Christianity, No Islam, no Humanity…

No racism, no specieism…no isms, no tys. That will resemble Ascension a bit more. Because we opened our heart – that is where we find our home, not on earth which is illusion. Because we lost our ego and actually let go.

We do not go into ascension looking for a twin flame to have orgasms with, or looking for a star family to proudly go on adventures with in outer space. Those things do not pave our way to ascension. Because those things have nothing to do with our heart center. And nothing to do with healing, of earth, of ourselves or of anyone. For all we know we will only find more illusion, more deception, more fantasy and broken hearts, more trauma, more crime, more technological disasters, more abuse of resources, more planets being ripped apart and their metals and food stolen – more resources consumed to build our crafts… that is not Ascension to me.

If we build our ships we will know for a fact it is through the magic of illusion alone, no one was hurt for it, no planet intruded upon. When we eat food we will know it is only through our mental energy we manifested a substance to feed us with. When we have a soulmate, a family, a network, a twin flame, it will ourely our own heart opening and appearing as family. Not our manifestations of lower self, of unconsciousness, of people and deceptions to leave behind, to cut cords from by recognising our own mistakes, our own past selves. No longer we will crave to get something out of someone, from earth, from another planet, from land, some person, an idol or imagined God or being, from a Master or Goddess like creature. That might be more like Ascension.

Ascension Blocks: The Illusion of Free Will

Do we have Free Will?

Of course – say spiritualists especially we who have followed new age masters such as Doreen Virtue, Hicks and Hay house diligently over the years.

We are proud and happy that we can manifest our reality.

Infact – we can also manifest our ascension, visualise and awaken into a higher dimension, ascend to the stars, to heaven by manifesting it, ascend the planet to the higher dimensions.

But is this really true?

Some experiments I have conducted, my own experiments have confirmed some rather surprising facts, some that are challenged by others, others who have not attempted those experiments at all but insist I listen to them instead of being on my own path.

  1. EXPERIMENT 1: Visualise something happening in your life, a pleasant experience perhaps, maybe a new gift you want someone to present you, your favourite perfume perhaps. Okay, make it vegan. Now check the results and find out what happens. Whenever I have attempted this it has happened (not any more as I am not into keeping objects now). For example several years ago I embarked upon these experiments, was short on cash and wanted a perfume of a certain brand – affirmed mentally that someone will gift me one, next week call from a new acquaintance that she wants to meet me for a perfume company’s marketing research and will pay me for it and gift me a bag of perfume and makeup. Repeated similar experiment several times and similar results in astonishing ways were evident.
  2. EXPERIMENT 2: Visualise a situation you want in your life, make it a pleasant one if you want. For example a nice date, a lovely dinner perhaps, with someone very attractive. Make it as specific as you want. Whenever I have visualised a situation in my life, it has manifested incredibly fast, in my younger years it was about being asked out by a lot of people, a fancy date in a restaurant, being given compliments on how nice I look at a dance party, being interviewed by a magazine or newspaper…everything happened as I affirmed and I enjoyed the popularity.
  3. EXPERIMENT 3: Visualise and manifest people – think of someone, imagine their face, think and make it up, not receptivity but third-eye projection. Imagine the clothes they wear, their height, how they behave, walk, speak, visualise the setting where they meet you, what are the exact things they say, word to word. Then share the results. My results have always confirmed that I am making it up, there is noone out there but our imaginary world, illusion, even people around.
  4. EXPERIMENT 4: Visualise money, someone giving you cash or any amount using any method and see it clearly or make affirmations for money or even career success, as if you are getting exactly what you want. In my case I used to make affirmations in my shop that on a particular day, someone would appear and purchase items worth a certain amount, I even affirmed the behavior, the way they will select items, for example, they wll come and purchase someting worth 10,000 rupees in exactly 5 minutes and leave, or that a client will appear with exactly a particular question for vedic astrology (an issue that I would manifest in my mind, for example something about debilitated solar system planet in certain houses leading to certain problems they need solutions to, I would imagine the reading exactly as it will go in future) and I would affirm that the reading will be excellent, they will say ‘you have hit the nail on the head’ and pay me and leave, and will give an excellent feedback. The fact these things manifested made me very uncomfortably aware that even my work, shop and entire success was an illusion, something I was creating purely mentally.
  5. EXPERIMENT 5: Visualise a change in your life such as a new house, a new place or area you want to live in, type of accomodation and see what happens and how soon. In my experience this is a fairly easy change to manifest as it usually comes from the heart when you really want it.
  6. EXPERIMENT 6: Visualise a change in health situation, probably a headache is gone, cold or cough symptoms relieved, a family member who was ill – visualise them improving, feeling happy, playing, dancing, enjoying life, growing up if they are children or pets. This usually works and have attempted this a few times successfully. Those who practice reiki or energy healing merely tap into this because they are relaxing their mind and allowing healing without worries blocking them, which is why sometimes we cannot manifest anything at all, due to our fears and concerns owing to lack of relaxation.
  7. EXPERIMENT 7: Visualise a thoughtform, maybe a symbol or a geometric construct and see it clearly with colours you imagine and create mentally. Try to notice if it appears anywhere in your vicinity. I remember the time I was teaching how to use thoughtforms to a student – for example a blue triangle and to place an intention in it, and we used it for traffic jam to ease out when I offered to drop the student off after a class in my car but was stuck in a jam, soon the vehicle before me moved and next we saw a vehicle with a blue triangle right in front of us.
  8. EXPERIMENT 8: Visualise something changing in the world, maybe a small thing, such as weather change, maybe try to visualise sunshine when it is a very rainy day, fill the sky with the sunlight in your mind, sense the warmth replacing the gray and cold skies and feel it on your skin, then see what happens and how fast it manifests. Have tried this several times. Once when there were floods in Mumbai in 2004 deluge I tried visualizing that all the clouds go away to another country northwards of the earth and away from Mumbai…results were terrifying as there was a hurricane Katrina in northern hemisphere. Therefore be careful what you ask for in weather, for even calamities can manifest that you regret later. Alternatively I had great success calming down storms too, especially feeling sad about the birds and animals affected on trees around as I woke up at night to a thunderstorm and used my third eye to stop it instantly.
  9. EXPERIMENT 9: Visualise a world event, someting that affects all of humanity, political, or economic, or health related. Never really liked this one as it involved reading newspapers and checking facebook newsfeed or google news regularly to see if it manifested. Also needed some emotional energy to manifest it which could sometimes be negative in case any negative news is encountered. This is a tricky one as we can manifest unpleasant events that affects all people around including self. With me I have to be especially careful as I tend to be upset with humanity and more pro-nature (rest of nature as I consider humanity to be arrogant and a perpetrator to earth). Hence I remind myself to read The Goddess Speaks which I wrote as positive affrmations for world peace and earth healing. Yet, I find that unconsciously I have been avoiding this off late, aware that things manifest purely mentally and hence are illusion, including world events.
  10. EXPERIMENT 10: This is unusual, and depends on your level of belief. Strongly visualise something very strange, impossible even, something that you cannot explain with logic or science, or rational mind. For example make a person appear and make them do something quite unusual, a menemonic to help you remember this happened out of your mind – to confirm and remind you that you are dreaming. This is tricky because if you share it with someone they might say you are hallucinating or delusional or crazy. For example I visualised a lady wearing a certain outfit and lipstick will walk through a tall hedge as if it were short grass, but obviously it may be hard to believe.
  11. EXPERIMENT 11: Visualise a dream, something that is meant to be unconscious, someting that ‘is given to you’ appears on its own, but this time you are creating it, very consciously. It helps if you are lucid in your dreaming which will come about if you note each and every small dream immediately and meditate for an hour or so daily. In my case I would visualise a specific person, wearing let us say a blue shirt, with a certain accent, saying particular words, perhaps someone supernatural, like an angel or a God or magical being, even a demon, or thoughtform if you dare to, aliens perhaps?
  12. EXPERIMENT 12: Visualise having some phenomenal psychic powers. For example I encoded or programmed that I will receive accurate forecasting or oracle about everything to happen that I need to be aware of. This led to mediumhip and contact with spirit guides who are very good at premonition, so much so that I hear messages all the time and they are always accurate. Of course you can also command it stops if it is too frequent and you want to detach. What I was unable to manifest was Telekinesis, moving objects with my mind without a physical apparent cause. In my case I tried it with telekinesis device using a screw kept loosely upside down on table with aluminium foil but unfortunately athough the foil moved and spun, I did not believe it was myself causing it, and thought it could be slight currents in the wind. The moment I turned around, the entire metal screw slid around the table on its own as if it was a spirit doing it someone like a body double in my vicinity, except invisible. I must admit I have not entirely been efficient in third eye telekinesis experiments but in the past with other ESP experiments such as Zener card trials I found amazing results with a whole group of students if there is an affirmation and effort.

Usually these things happen after prolonged meditation, but, I am hoping that is so because of my resistance to the awakening and being too busy in other things to fully focus on the paranormal or psychic powers within, and not because meditation for long hours is necessary. Infact things can also happen quite spontaneously, a thought can manifest instantly without prolonged meditation.

We think these things are ‘supernatural’ and ‘special powers’ thus we are unable to break the rules of the world, we love the simplicity around us, the people, the comfort of friendships, relationships, four walls of a house to feel safe in, grounding with physical nature or earth, food and the feeling of nourishment and logical explanation that it is helping us move around in the world, and we manifested a government to take care of roads and public transport, hence a taxation system, financial system, judicial system and what have you. Which brings me to the next experiment – manifest something with the government authorities, imagine someone calling you, or an official meeting you and doing something. For example I wrote a letter to a ministry and visualised them responding with a letter, imagining the worlds they will write in a response, and it was exactly as I had thought, the same sentences.

The issue here is that we complain about governments, law, systems, but what if they were also illusion, people and systems designed by the mind, which in my case is not an expert in law or finance…or anything actually… and has manifested a government that is not perfect, and then comes the feeling of injustice. When we read new about crimes, about conspiracies, about control of public funds, pedophile rings at highet levels, strange and terrible things like ‘leg of lamb’ sold at the neighborhood supermarket stores, it really does put me off to live in such a reality. I cannot fathom why this mind would manifest or conceive this world – is there something else to it, because if the universe is withn why would it be so horrid when it comes to human laws and behavior?

The fact is everything round us, is a projection of our past thoughts, our past energy, our past self or unconsciousness. As we gain consciousness, these will be replaced with what we want instead of what we ‘no longer’ do or at least that is what should happen. But are we even clear about what we want? Or do we even care? Is our energy more and more focused on the temporary relationships and family life, fears around losing our loved one, attachments that are emotional and heart-based. For instance I for sure know I manifested my son, his face, his behavior, his effervescence and joy, I had visualised he will only get cuter with every year as he grows and it is so and he is who takes up most of my time on earth (or wherever I am).

How about if nothing was true at all, if all this free will, all this manifestation was merely my mind making things up?

The illusion of free will.

Which brings me to the point – why is it that we have manifested a corrupt or negative world, one with evil, for instance animal abuse, slaughter, the most apparent evil in the world, taking someone’s life itself or sexual abuse of trillions of animals bred to be bled? Could it be that we are witnessing this for a reason, to remember something? Why are we unable to end it. So I made a petition and wanted to change laws around this system, to end animal farming in late 2018 to early 2019. I decided to be a strict vegan and not merely a health based plant eater, flexible at times with the odd dairy in cakes or cholocates, flexible especially with others as I cooked at home for them. I manifested a family situation change because while I was tolerating my own control and abuse, compromising my own self-worth and dignity, in my closest of all relationships, this time it was someone else’s life I was standing up for.

No longer will I be alright with injustices anymore (thanks to Jaocquin Phoneix of Earthlings who validated my insights that I was avoiding facing since 2014 when I first decided to go plant based for Ethical reasons and thought if I need to ascend to a planet on star system Vega which is my home away from the illusory earth, maybe a spaceship Phoenix). On receiving many articles online about Ashtar and ascended masters team all of a sudden began an ascension series of experiences and I wondered if I manifested these dreams and psychic awakenings too.

But the most important personal change was that I decided to be unhappy with the way I was taught to accept other people’s ‘personal choices’ around food. I was taught to accept diversity, vegetarians, non-vegetarians alike, as humans – as friends, as family members – those like my parents, my close relatives, my past self who was trained or programmed to believe that animals and plants both have life and that it is alright to consume animals too. I have no idea why I was born into such a family and such a world where we are taught to be alright with animals being killed for food, and how I started believing it was so, but no longer would I tolerate this, we need to ‘tell the truth’ and ‘demand a change’ because of the way we are destroying the planet, with global warming. Soon after the intention I heard of ‘extinction’ rebellions for climate and including one for animals, marching down the streets of London were thousands of people asking for laws to change and animal farming to end. I visualised this change would take place on its own, with people manifesting this. That I may not even be required in this world, this illusion.

However you think of the experiments above – the truth remains that everything in life in the world, in dreams, on relationships, is maya – an illusion. A projection of mental and emotional energy manifesting through intentions, through this will power. When we feel it strongly we project it into existence. Clearly nothing is real.

So why are we still here, why is the world still here? Why can we not simply ascend? Why not leave illusion behind permanently and discover the real, the true self, why not go home?

One explanation I could think of is – Karma – while we think that it is ok to exploit, abuse and use animals – truth is we are in a simulation ourselves – and somewhere on some spaceship, multidimensionally we are the animals that aliens are experimenting upon while plugging us into this virtual reality – and we so deserve this. While we think we are living on earth we are not here at all. that would explain why we have a world with all this evil, injustices, cruelty and negativity, as if there to remind us and teach us a lesson, or me more lessons. Is that the truth, or is it again another level of simulation that my mind is manifesting by thinking so?

Another explanation that many people use is one of the Matrix, we are in an artificial reality, designed by AI, deliberately made negative so that we are kept engaged in the world process, and keep trying to save the world – just like Neo in the Matrix, the savior, but alas it was also another trick of the architect and the Oracle and he was merely a version of Neo that was inbuilt into the system, an anomaly that led to a rebooting or reloading of the entire Matrix program system again and again. While we are trying to heal the world and make it a better place, are we merely being tricked to stretching the dreamword a bit more by our active engagement in to the drama of the world. Infact in a dream I saw that I said, we have deliberately been implanted with ‘false memories’ of being taught how to consume animal products and accept killing as normal, but this is not how it is meant to be. People around me who we think or believe in killing may be all programs, keeping my mind all tied up in this illusion of conflict and evil or are they my past self projecting outside of me but actually internally if this was a dreamworld.

A third perhaps more rational or psychological explanation is something like Inception, that it is all different levels of dreaming, from more conscious lucid dreaming of outer reality world we are in currently, to deeper more subconscious realities we descend into at night time. But what if this was night and not day, and what if we were asleep when we in-fact think we are awake. When the dream starts falling apart, as designed by the architect team member, there are unusual things that happen, terrorism, violence, genocide, war, flooding, calamities, and a sound that leads to a reminder – that one must prepare to wake up. Simply it is the mind giving us a message we have programed into our dreamworld ourselves, one of awakening, because the dream is falling apart. Our ascension symptoms might be leading upto something afterall – the dream of this life in this world metamorphosising into something, our dreambody, this body metamorphosising into something, waking up because it is simply – unusual, unnatural or quite evidently a dream.

I do not know why, but I did find a spinner, exactly like the movie’s spinning top when suddenly it popped up on my computer – a menemonic to order online. But then I was told, the tarot is my mnemonic or totem, one I carry all the time, a reminder, even as the spinner sits among my tarot decks, untouched while I play with my son.

Personal Awakening: Losing Friends and Relationships

One of the facts of Ascension I am realizing is that we are going to lose friends and have fewer people in our life. For example in my personal life, what I am seeing is that the moment we share anything about domestic abuse with our spiritual friends they start treating us a bit differently, as if we need healing personally, as if we need advise from them, as if we are at a lower level and others at higher level. Being vegan does not help either, it repels most people away, people who simply hate you for reminding them that all animals feel pain and have emotions like humans do.

Domestic abuse and rape are some of the most common of all phenomena among humans, especially females. There will hardly be one female on earth who has not had an experience of being shouted at teased, made to feel ashamed, sexually abused or dominated upon. This does not mean that it was the fault of the victim and being a victim does not mean that we are not aware of our rights or not on the right path and need others to control us even more. To the contrary it means we are aware and left relationships finally, even at a financial loss to us and thus no longer a victim. The financial and career loss I had as a result of walking out of abuse was immense, not just because of the loss because of the way my work and profits were taken away from me due to control by family members (first my father, then sister aunt and then my, partner all very controlling persons who constantly wanted to subdue me and dictate my career choices) but also because of the general attitude of other spiritual clients and associates who just avoid you because you disclosed your personal life to them or use knowledge of your personal life against you to shame you.

Domestic abuse does not mean that someone spiritual who is good at their work should not longer get work or be respected in society because they were a victim but the vibes I have received from other ‘spiritual’ friends are of sympathy and as if they are preaching and not respecting me as a professional any longer. No longer do they invite me as a speaker at their events, or as stallholders at their festivals for Awaken the Goddess. 1111 events, Mind Body Soul festivals or any other spiritual shows, when in previous years when I was married and quietly working without sharing my past, they were eager to have me over. This is the discrimination I have seen here even in London. Essex and India.

People start treating you as if you are lower than them and I have been spoken badly to by those I shared my story with, as I because of my recent past experiences in personal relationships, I am negative as a person towards the rest of humanity. I am sorry but for your kind information, I have never been a fan of human species. In my opinions humans are at the lowest level of evolution, trees and plants being at a higher level, even insects and other creatures or animals such as monkeys are at a higher level than us. Humans are the ONLY species on this planet that are destroying the planet. So if I sound negative about humankind in general – or say that humans are demons it is a personal conviction I have and sincerely ashamed to be part of human race, a race that terrifies and frightens other animals, hurts then, abuses them, controls them, treats them like slaves for personal petting, enjoyment, breeding, or for food, clothing or other products. To every other living being on earth, and to earth on the whole, humans are the Devil.

The human race is at the lowest of all vibrational states as compared to other species who are carnivorous only out of the fact they are unable to think in complex ways and are programmed to hunt. We are able to think and release ourselves from programs to kill, hunt or abuse others, still we behave less than other animals and argue that we have canines and are omnivores to justify our rape and murder of other animals – the best, politest, kindest and sweetest of human beings (who are very nice to other humans) do this all the time. More than 99% of these are these type of humans of earth and we meet them all the time – even in spiritual circles and climate change strikes. No matter how nice you are to them and explain the points diligently when asked, without intruding upon them, without being aggressive, they still simply do not care. They care about the taste of dairy milk, cheese or eggs, that is what they love, and your friendship or the planet or pain of other species means nothing to them. Zero empathy.

The rest of the one percent are plant based – not even really vegan as they may be in it for health reasons. They will still use leather, fur, feathers animal hide and other products even in their spiritual products.

And veganism is not the only factors in ascension frequencies – it is only the starting point.

As regards my recent relationship experiences, I have never been anything but a feminist, I have never been a fan of male chauvinism or of patriarchy and was only because of my spiritual profession and work tolerating abuse by a man, because I knew that the moment I tell people what is happening to me, especially spritual friends and clients, they will stop taking advise or support from me for their spiritual work and I will lose the only income source I had, my Magick shop in Mumbai. I was 100% sure that I will lose my network, clients and reputation the moment I shared rape and sexual abuse facts with my spiritual friends or clients as that shop and flat was my only place to live as my PR business was taken by my sister and she would not let me enter my mother’s flat if I left my own. I was trying to hold on to material comfort which was my fault.

I knew the moment we expose that we are in any kind of trouble especially in our personal lives, our clients refuse to visit us any more as they want only those people who are never into any problems to help them – they think they should stay away from others who have any negative ‘energy’ as if being abused means our own energy was negative. They don’t even know that no matter how postiive you are personally it does not mean you will not be abused – look at farm animals for instance – they have done nothing wrong, yet are abused. Those who are kinder or less violent or aggressive get treated even more badly from others. Our spiritual compassion and forgiveness becomes an excuse for others to attack us even more and use our spirituality as an excuse to stretch their boundaries with us to an unhealthy extent.

Believe it or not spiritual people are the first to condemn the victims and blame and shame them. They think that they must respect only those who have had most perfect lives and force us to pretend and project a false image as if ‘all is well’ and there is nothing wrong with their world. They want only positive posts, positive images, positive words and flowery tone.

Something is wrong with the world – we are not in a great world, we are in a world that has a lot of evil in it and it is our fault as a human race. We have racism, sexism, specieism and do not have basic level of consciousness as a specie. If you disagreee with me and think that we as humans are wonderful people and a blessing to our planet, I beg to differ, we are not a great blessing to our planet, we are simply trying to ruin it a LITTLE BIT LESS but crying against fossil fuels or animal abuse and demanding a ‘just’ transition in our systems.

We still have wars and nukes, we still have weapons and crimes, we still have legal female genital mutiliation in some countries and widely practiced in others, we still have countries in which women are flogged publicly, we still have legal marital rape even in countries such as India famous for spiritual enlightenment where a penis (linga) is worshipped and yoni supposed to be penetrated into by man. People speak highly of Buddha but even he they say died of eating pork. We still have dairy and animal products EVERYWHERE even in this computer’s LCD screen – that is the joke we are as a human race, none of us, even the greatest of our spiritual masters have been aware, leave alone enlightened. I include myself in the unenlightened lot, a demon merely learning how to be less negative as each one of us is. Nothing godly or divine about it.

If we manifest anything in life, anything – it only means we are plugged into a computer system – one that is generating a hologram, an illuson around us – that is simply put the SECRET, the Law of Attraction – nothing great about it, nothing to feel proud of, nothing holy or spiritual or divine. It means we are controlled and in the false world, a sham, a virtual reality. Not a God, not a Goddess, channling a higher power, but merely a dreamer is who we are, living in a mind based reality ‘show’.

Seeing the TERRIBLY slow pace at which change is taking place…and how people generally argue and fight CONSTANTLY even for their ‘rights to consume eggs, dairy, chicken and meat’ and are unable to make any personal change while saying they are victims of a political system – a system we have created – there is very very slim chance of our ascension as a civilisation. We want change but we do not want to change. In all probability we will destroy our planet instead of ascending it. We are on earth because we are learning lessons, we are not ready to ascend to a higher level or dimension except internally at times in our dreamworld or fantasy while being in an AI/ VR program, as slaves who are bound to earth, kept controlled in hell and dreaming of heaven – that is all.

Most people do not even want Ascension or freedom from the matrix – they just want to live here itself in thie Virtual Reality – and they will discourage to the best extent possible anyone who is a seeker of truth. They seek illusion (maya) and worship this maya which is comfortable instead of truth which awakens us – the uncomfortable truth – that we are all controlled, not just by politics, not just by governments or religions, but by a virtual reality based simulation, a computer simulation – and they just do not care. All they care about is food, having a pleasant or comfortable life, enjoying themselves, and being happy within this prison called earth and very patronisingly telling me also to do what they do and accept their opinion and belief as the ultimate truth – they have had no personal experiences as I have had of the simulation but still insist I must do as they say as if they are the final authority. That is our level of awakening on the whole.

Ascension: Levels of Consciousness

It is easy to talk about universal consciousness, galactic and multi-dimensional awakening from a personal point of view. In practicality awakening is a tremendously painful process when experienced ‘locally’ (this term locally came from not me but the spirit team). Thanks to them I do not need grammarly to correct my sentences.

For most people starting our in spirituality, the primary focus is on their personal aura, their inner peace, their healing from negativity, their emotional wellbeing and private mind-fulness. They learn how to channel reiki or energy for personal benefit, to heal their cells, to reduce symptoms of diseases first, perhaps a headache we are feeling or sensing now all of a suddenly, like I am at the back of the left side of my head (and I am asked to type that too), when we are on our smartphones, computers or wifi systems (which is a huge ource of headaches actually if we pay attention to it…develop sensitivity). Then we try healing our surroundings such as their personal crystals, which some people also use for personal relaxation and peace (until we do not any more). Listening to soothing sounds, music, positive mantras, satsangas (courses and discourses) from gurus and masters who speak soothing and enlightening words in meditative tone is hypnotic and beautiful. It helps us feel aligned with a higher consciousness, by taking a few minutes off the daily thinking process that our mind is constantly being engaged in – plugged into.

This reminds me of satsangas from various highly enlightened masters that I had attened several years ago, one being Osho Siddharth and Osho Shailendra (biological brother of Osho Rajneesh and their commune partners) and another being Brahmarshi Patriji of Pyramid Spiritual Societies movement, both of which I had joined if only for a while. In their satsangas never felt like there is someone ‘else’ talking to me, only that they were saying, infact- word to word, my thoughts, as if telepathicaly, and it always felt very strange and like a lucid dream, where my mind is revealed to me exactly as is…every word, and every gap between two words, exactly so…a mirror. The entire one hour to several hours plus satsangas actually were a tremendous streaming of consciousness flowing as if from my own mind but in their ovice. They were not the only ones though, many teachers, spiritualists, have felt the same, like they were inside me in my mind. There is never a difference of thought or opinion at all on one hand, which is good as no conflict ever arises with them, except when y ego sets in. But on the other hand, it feels unreal, as if it is merely my mind and nothing outside, or noone outside. ‘Is that all there is?’ – I wondered, the end of knowledge? Surely I am not the ONE or any enlighetned one at least. Am I sleeping in ‘kryonic’ state on a spaceship, plugged into a computer system and dreaming this world up magically while I am sleeping. How else can I explain the many projections everyday even of people? (Heal myself, I am told as the headache returns and this computer gets unbearable, I feel the heat of the wifi in my cheekbones even as I continue to type, eager to record my thoughts, if only for my own records).

Truly there is noone to know and nothing to know but the knower – and that is all the matrix can ever teach us. With these spiritual masters this was confirmed. But this is not how it feels when we are interacting with other people on a daily basis around us. With the person next door who barely talks to us, with the person in the next cubicle in the office, with the acquaintence you fell out from because of an argument…there are differences at a superficial level because we are not meditating and channeling pure consciousness. We struggle to be in alignment, to be understood, to be felt and to feel love, or at times even plain and basic intelligence from some people, as if they are not real, not there, not interested…like the many…many people in the matrix shown to Neo in the movie, simply holographically manifest or generated programs (from all walks of life).

Our daily struggle, relationship blockages, family situations, economic risks and financial crisis, our strife at work, career challenges and group dynamics affects us all the time while we live in the matrix. These are what feeds the matrix around us, taking energy our of us and delivering that energy to others seemingly around us, empowering the matrix so that we are controlled, or feel controlled even if we actually are not. So that we feel entangled and engrossed in ‘maya’ or illusion on a constant basis.

Self empowerment and personal healing, therefore becomes the most important beginning point for our personal ascension. It brings our energy back to our center, within us, reminding us that it is our mental energy projecting outwards creating the simulation of our world, our universe.

Strangely though, however many times we may try to cleanse our bodies, our mind, our emotional self, our chakras and auric layers, it is still difficult to get ‘rid of’ all the negative energy.

We want to feel positive but instead we find that the more we cleanse our own personal life negativity the more in alignement we are coming with universal conciousness to channel healing from, and the more we are being empowered with the mission of ‘planetary healing’. Shortly we turn our attention outwards to the state of the world and the more we do that, the more depressed and disillusioned we begin to feel all over again. Our little private bubble of personal contentment has burst finally (and thankfully so). We realize there is tremendous negative energy still there, no matter how much personal cleansing we conduct upon ourselves.

The negative energy is not just in our personal aura (or so it seems)…as empaths we feel sensitive to the state of our world and our planet, the cries of the animals murdered and trees killed and the soil and stones blasted off daily, the forest fires and the climate change and global warming, the melting of our poles. We are uncomfortable all over again. And we should be.

We can be as vegan and spiritual and as eco-friendly as we care to be in our personal bubbles (shrinking bubbles, they said) one through which we are shielding and coping, ways of staying ‘sane’ and normal in this crazy world. But how can we escape from that negativity that we sense so very daily around us as we go shopping in the supermarkets full of chopped body parts of murdered creatures wrapped in innocent looking plastic bags, as we walk down the road, as we interact with others who are blissfully or willingly ignorant? This frustrates us, unbearably. Why can we all not be enlightened, not all be awakened fully, why not all be if not awakened or enlightened at least conscious of very simple and basic things, like how not to kill someone? If everyone is a projection and all life a dream, why is it so that there is today, a single person who is angry, negative, evil, cruel or violent around us. Does this mean out inner self is not yet healed in totality? In short we are not ‘Home’ yet.

When we begin our spiritual lourney, at first we learn a few things such as meditation, affirmations, spells, chakra work, channeling energy, and for a few years it is beautiful… we are brimming with joy, success, enlightenment, happiness, bliss and peace and too eager to ‘heal our world and make it a better place’ as Michael Jackson would sing. Soon we realize it is not that very easy. Was Michael Jackson a perfect person, or is any one of us perfect in any way, any one of us, without negativity, without some form of it anyways? Our intentions may be grand but are we from within totally pure and free of negativity? (And for this question we ned to be entirely honest and go really deep inside). If we are not entirely free of negativity within, not complete, not really happy, how do we hope to manifest a perfect universe or even a happy world, a simulation – without completing the great work, this world within us to be healed first.

As Within, So Without – is not just about Intention or thoughts, that would merely be Air and Fire element in healing. Our emotion and behavior are the Water and Earth through which our reality condenses from spirit to matter into the dreamworld we live in, heaven or hell or somewhat both, mid-way…but looking at the world, taking an honest and fully informed look at it, our earth does not resemble heaven or mid-way even. Why would that be so?

It is said that the road to ‘hell’ is paved with good intentions. Obviously good intentions are not enough and merely the beginning but left to their own they may not manifest, we need to really put our heart and soul into it a hundred percent, through and through and work with our own behavior in this body or with any other body we might have, and we need to carry on our inner work with full sincerity and be honest with ourselves.

If we were ascending we will not be seeking a destination that is Ascension, not seeking a heaven above or desperate for light and love, for peace or bliss as a goal, an objective for ourselves, for our personal motivation, but selflessly attuned to the work we are undertaking. If we were to be dedicated to a destination called heaven, whether on earth or in the sky, one where we will be ‘permitted’ to enter or a selected few ‘selected’ for, then how different would we be to the billions of humans who are following religion solely for their goal or hope for being allowed into the sacred destination of the holy ones or their master Jesus or God, or ascended levels of creator, into a perfect place where they can live happily for all eternity, forgiven and allowed into the heavenly realms surrounding the thrones of their God or master/ deity? How different would we be if our Ascension be for our own peace and bliss as we leave the world and all its trauma and suffering behind for others to endure, for others to suffer, for others to even be punished in ‘hell’ with?

As spiritual being who have kindness and love in their hearts how can we allow even one being to suffer to be in pain or to be punished in hell while we ascend to our higher planes and close our hearts to the world below that we are proudly and hurriedly leaving behind in our quest on our multidimensional spaceships or with our twin-flames and angels who carry our tired souls off to another world even as this one is destroyed and going down under? (‘Karma’ my mind says, ‘we deserve it’…but ‘really’, says my heart – are we not able to forgive ourselves and heal each other?)

Surely this is not what awakening looks like to those of us who are empaths and are awakening today. To some of us the feeling of suffering feels as terrible to ourselves as it does to another person, one who is suffering without us in the matrix, or within us in reality. The demons and devils are within, so are the angels and deities of perfect love and light, and the billions and trillions who suffer each year, our victims, our self. We feel as if we suffer with them, a part of us does – a large part of us…gigantic infact. If we are united as one being, one soul, one universal consciousness, then how do we plan to abandon our own loved ones so gleefully and escape this condition that we call our world? (my guides are asking me to type the word Mahadi, I have never used this word before).

In my lucid dream last night I was given a diagram of Ascension, starting with the present solar system, our sun, then a path leading to another sun, probably Sirius – once again for the second time reinforcing Pleiedian and Arcturian or Galactic shift, following which there were two more levels or layers, two more paths, two more suns, the names of which were written but my attention went around them… outside of this…where there was a pitch dark , black space, the word written was ‘Mahamaya’ to the right and ‘Enlightenment’ below. This seems confusing at first but is not so, because in my previous posts I had written that to know the darkness (light on darkness) that is where enlightenment begins.

Mahamaya is a term described by ancient spiritualists from India or Vedic pholosophers of advaita (non-duality) as the great cosmic creatrix, the manifest and unmanifest energy of the universe, the potentiality that is infinity in appearance, unreal or illusion at best but still there, still significant, still omnipresent. It is this energy that everyone worships all over the world, as the creator, as God, as Goddess, as the supreme cause..as consciousness. Energy unconscious becoming conscious….it seems to be around us, but is it really within us? Is it really just one mind presenting many people, many animals, many trees, many planets and stars, many galaxies, many dimensions, many planes of consciousness, many universes, many beings of spirit, many masters, many selves? Could it all be – just an illusion, just a grand cosmic dream? Could it all merely (and regrettably) be a computer generated simulation at this solar level or any other level where we are ascending to? These are honest questions I ask without any concrete answers as yet.

If it is so, then why do we cry for our planet (sometimes I type plant instead of planet, a Freudian slip perhaps, my mind telling me things are not what they seem, an industrial plant, a machine world or an organic plant – there is a difference). We want to heal our earth which is certainly a simulation, but are we all just programs, all living beings mere simulation, our bodies, emotions, thoughts, all our suffering an illusion? If so, there is a hope of peace here that all those who suffered did not really suffer in truth, that it was merely a dream. But we felt it nevertheless.

We are empaths, healers and love based consciousness focused, simple and humble individuals who want there to be peace, kindness and a better world. That is why we hope to ascend, to the better universe, and for this matrix to fully ‘open up’ and fall apart like a dream ends, we cannot bear the untruth of suffering any longer and wish it would end just like Alice in Wonderland, calling out the cards of absurd reality for what they are, just a (plain) pack of cards, queens, kings …and all. In a world of truth, no one should be crying or in pain, noone abused or killed, no rape, no eco-cide, no destruction, only conscious beings who co-exist in peace, connected through love and light, for anything below that is simply meaningless and absurd and makes no sense whatsoever. There is no place for evil in a true world, it can only be untruth, duality, simulation, maya, and at least that is what I hope it is.

We can only believe and try to pray, heal or improve our awareness levels to a planetary conciousness, through all this pain and suffering of the world, feeling it in us, sensing and not ignoring it, realizing something through it, something very wrong….working with it… not ignoring it..but learning. From then on we progress to a galactic consciousness…and hope that with this awakening of consciousness there will (still) be an awakening of the real self, the one within, who remains awake inside – from this dream to the truth – that to me is Ascension… at least for now.

Some Blocks to Ascension: Family Values and Social Mores


Sometimes the biggest personal blocks to changing ourslelves, healing and transformation comes from our own attachment to our family and close relatives. We are so used to them, so much in love, so worshipful of our parents, so respectful of relatives, that we end up doing a lot of things they do and copy the same habits that they in turn have been learning from the world around them, from their ancestors, from media, science, schools or even spirituality.

My school teacher in year one itself called for a special class on why we should not be vegetarian, explaining that ‘plants have life too’. It was a popular joke in family dinners that ‘We love animals, because they are so tasty’. So ingrained this was in my psyche since early years that it never bothered me that there was slaughter or exploitation involved against another creature’s free will. In my Wicca degrees gained from a western tradition they ridiculed Jains for not eating meat to educate their Wiccan followers that ‘Harm None Do As Ye Will’ does not extend to animals as it is extreme to be vegetarian, leave alone vegan. Being enchanted with western superiority and power over Indian culture a lot of Indians follow the western spiritualists, philosophers and scientists with a lot of respect. This is not to say that Indian or eastern philosophy is perfect, just that our education system has globally been fashioned around British principles to a toxic extend with English being the most popular language all over the world and degrees in English highly sought after.

My father was a brilliant man and loved the idea of space exploration. he wrote the first ever children’s Hindi science fiction novel in India published in a hugely popular children’s magazine in four parts as recorded in the Indian book of records. He always said, if the world is coming to an end, do not worry, we can always build a spaceship and find a new planet to live on. Because the universe is unlimited and there are infinite starts and planets around. This is what science has taught us through our schools and through our fiction novels, that we can destroy our planet and cooly find a new one to destroy. This to us is a mark of human superiority, our technological prowess.

It appears that there are four types of galactic civilisations according to a very popular system. The Kardashev scale is a method of measuring a civilization’s level of technological advancement based on the amount of energy they are able to consume. So Type 1 uses all of the energy of our planet (apparently we humans are aspiring to reach that level), Type 2 will use all the solar system energy, Type 3 galactic energy consumer and so on. This is called progress? Using more, consuming more, taking more? Destroying whatever we see, consuming and eating up our planet, and then the universe itself!

The Kardashev scale was first explained by my very intelligent (brilliant like my father) husband who was an ardent follower of Yogananda and his master Swami Yukteshwar who wrote The Holy Science and described how Yugas are related to scientific advancement. According to their philosophy we are not in Kali-yuga but Dwapar yuga or new age with the darkest of all times behind us. While I like that thought they also say we are ascending in consciousness level as we have invented electricity and now are using more and more energy and advancing scientifically so that we will be even more powerful. Of course I never agreed with this philosophy that Yugas are related to science and technology, to me it is only and only about morality and reducing our impact on earth, being less harmful to the environment and to other beings and to be less demonic as human beings on earth who are destroying our world.

To me Sata yuga has no gadgets or technology at all, these machinations being harmful to nature and not in alignment with the spirit world, who is telepathic and has no need for gadgets. In Sata yuga in my opinion we will meditate and develop our hidden powers of intuition and telekinesis instead of gadgetry and weapons, and be so morally clean that we wouldnever think of using these powers for any kind of evil or harm to others. We will be kind, take nothing much from nature, exist blissfully without needing to chop a single tree or animal, or build a concrete jungle, leave alone mining for metals and blasting away the planet looking for things to consume and build spaceships with. Energy from within channeled from the higher self, not craving for more and more from around us, seems like the only right way of using energy.

Similarly we have been taught to be proud of our skills to manifest success in our material life. New age spirituality has brainwashed us to think ‘more’, want ‘more’, dream ‘more’ and create ‘more’…and so we perform our daily chores but also attract ‘more’ money, wealth, cars, toys, artefacts, jewels, wealth, property…we all want to be billionnaires as feng-shui would want us to be. We learnt how to use special stones and affirmations to ensure we are streaming more and more ‘abundance’ into our lives in the form of financial prosperity. While this teaches us about how to manipulate energy, unknowlingly we are becoming victims of a system that values money and wealth earned through exploitation of our planet. Our cars, real estate and jewels are not ours to keep, they hurt our planet and destroy our eco-system. We should as spiritualists be seeking less not more, letting go, not attracting, be celibate not wanting more sexual relationship success, be a minimalist not someone who consumes more and more.

When I realized this I felt a sense of relaxation as if years of stress of so called ‘success’ has been taken away from my head, the need to ‘balance spirituality with materialism’ as read in so many new age textbooks by leading authors of the western world and ‘tantra’. No longer do I need to enchant relationships into my life, nor do I need to magic more money, luxury or big houses into my little world. I can be content with what I have nd try to let go even more. It never felt good anyways, trying to attract relationships and money or property, something always felt very wrong at a very deep level, adn obviously it felt like I am in illusion, the money and clients illusion, and all my popularity an illusion, a dreamworld or matrix. From then on I am only letting go. At times I have not had a lot of money, probably not enough to eat a grand meal, but strangely I had no hunger either. There are days I had no food and was perfectly healthy and doing my daily chores without fainting. Even avoiding water and food at times was fine for some days when fasting, although it is not for me to advise others to try it. I have not continued this beyond a week or so and still eat a little or have a cup of hot chocolate and some snacks or fruit daily and cook healthy meals for my son, eating leftovers because I hate to waste food. But I am impressed that we actually can live with so very little, we can conserve instead of consume energy, use our inner resources instead of outer ones, even breatharianism is possible.

During Ascension for a lot of us, the veils are being lifted off, we are learning how not to be enamoured by our history:

  • We are learning not to be proud of the wars our forefathers faught that the matrix has taught us to be proud of.
  • We are learning that just because our parents love eating meat or dairy we do not have to be respectful of this heinous practice and must very kindly express ourselves and explain why we disagree withut fighting.
  • We are learning to not reach out for that bottle of spiderkiller spray or how not to swat mosquitoes and flies away, instead of use ethical alternatives and keep our homes clean in the first place.
  • We are learning how not to grow with weedicides and to not throw away weeds but to integrate nature into our gardens.
  • We are learning how to not use trees for wood or paper just because we grow a tree for replacement, but to use ethical alternatives instead.
  • We are learning to use less land, less water, less food just for luxury or pleasure and consume only what we truly require.
  • We are learning how to adopt children and rescue animals to satusfy our parental cravings instead of producing more children.
  • We are learning how to place our crystals back into earth for healing our planet, back into our seas and soil with intentions for healing nature instead of using them for personal wellbeing.
  • We are learning how to use less wifi, less phones, less computers and not be addicted to them or increase their demands in the world by buying more.
  • We are learning to print less paper and save trees, use bamboo or other sustainable paper only if absolutely necessary
  • We are learning to use herbal compost toilets where we can instead of flushing systems and wash our bottoms thoroughly instead of waste toilet rolls made of tree pulp.
  • We are learning to use natural herbs instead of chemicals for washing, bathing, shampoo, dental care.
  • We do not value plastic anymore, we know there was life before it and there will be a better life after it, and without all those synthetic fabrics too.
  • We do not need to travel and go on expensive holidays and fly about, instead we have Greta Thunberg showing us how to not fly a jet plane.
  • We are learning to question the system around us that we created to suit our past level of awarenes
  • We are learning to switch off the television, not engage in politics, stop watching newsfeed all the time, not to gossip about people, not to google up for everything and meditate instead.
    These are all beautiful ascension practices to learn, that help us evolve to a level that is lesss materialistic, less consumeristic, and more ethical.

However that is not all, we also need to learn how to develop our inner spiritual self and sixth sense or Extended Sensory Perceptions for Ascension by seeing the unseen, knowing the unknown. Spiritual awakening is about making our subconcious more conscious. It is about self-witnessing, going within and no longer engrossed in the self deception that the world is any way real. We are wearing off and getting exhausted living in an artificial simulation that some of us recognise is a false world pulled over our eyes. We are looking for answers. And that requires some courage – the courage to let go and challenge everything we have learnt from our ancestors.

Ascension Practices

Not everyone around is interested in Ascension. Most people are too highly engrossed in day to day life and in worrying about the system around them, or earning a living through material or spiritual work to even pay attention within for more than five minutes a day. The following practices have evolved me over the years:

  • Lucid Dream Journalling: To make the subconscious conscious keep a dream diary near bed each night and note every little dream as soon as you wake up including odd hours, till it gets phenomenally lucid as if your waking life and dreams are both dream states. Contact with your higher self, masters and guides is established 24×7 and not just in dreams if we pay attention to lucid dreams including those in which you move out of the world. Notice how similar life and death – dream states are and how both are inorganic – purely mental creations, energy that can be shifted through mind, hence illusion. This is because death can bring us back into another similar simulated universe where we continue our ‘story’ and repeat the same patterns.
  • Ascension Symptoms: If there is a pain or tingle in any part of body or any perceived sensation without any organic stimuli causing it, please pay attention to that and ask your spirit team/ twin flame or ascended higher self what this means. Await for establishment of a two way communication system, gateway or light language between you and your spirit team/ shipmates/ higher self or multi-dimensional twin flame (who are noone from this world). Your higher self is within you and awakens when we make our subconscious conscious upto the level that we require. We realize the universe within us and can potentially transcend the same interdimensionally. Multiple clair-senses are activated through sight (clarirvoyance), sound (clairaudience), smell (clairallience), taste (clairgustance), touch (clairsentience) and emotion (clairempathy) that is not necessarily from the physical universe and a could be message from within. Physical gateways and manifestations of the spirit team members will appear too.
  • Meditation: Practice silence of thoughts (quiet time), or meditation for appx 30 mins to 1 hour a day minimum (if not the lucidilty level both in night and day will reduce and awareness drop down gradually). Both eyes closed and open eyes in meditation (as channeled) your spirit team is with you 24×7 and as you pay attention you hear their voice and their messages. Learning and practicing mediumship and channeling helps in receptivity. Practicing magical, third eye and psychic skills for manifestation helps in gaining power over the physicality and breaking rules of the matrix but not be stuck at this level to get too engrossed in the outer world. Our chakras are phenomenal galactic portals of consciousness projecting not just outside, dream life but also connecting to true self through higher cosmic and ascension chakras beyond earth life.
  • Life changes: Healing of planet through eco-friendly, non materialistic, minimalistic, vegan, non-harming, non-violent, non-specieist practices and spiritual energy healing practices. Not human centric but planetary, galactic universal consciousness so that we can see our true self beyond our human ego and physicality. Also cutting cords from negative relationships, trying to not be enslaved by the world around, rejecting all evil, freedom from control, from trauma, health issues, and from toxic material and fear based inorganic systems of politics, economics, legal, world affairs, media, news, television, internet, various religions, or from habits of drugs, smoking, alcohol, sex, food or anything else that keeps us highly unconscious. Practice detachment.
  • Simulation Awareness: If we are experiencing life as a simulation created purely through mental input-output process it is likely we are plugged in remotely and not actually in this world at all, and our physical body and relationships, all things are part of dream-world, (cosmic, infinite, eternity, universe being a mathematical or computer simulated illusion seemingly real only through sensory perceptions of stimuli). All the smells, taste, voices, visions, sensations are therefore only mathematical codes interpreted by our mind – and not real things. The fractals of nature, sacred geometry, repeated patterns such as mirror number pattrens, tarot and other oracles and premonitions are unpleasant signs that we are in an en-coded simulation. Awakening from this will require significant detachment from world process. Death and depression or mere emotional healing, pleasant dreams, happy life, physical or mental comfort does not necessarily take us out of the world but may keep us locked up within the matrix, the prison wherein our consciousness is trapped or limited to the current physical world or lower dimension. Awakening through full consciousness helps us in shifting our frequency by making the unconscious conscious.

AWAKENING

During ascension, there is the constant connection with other frequencies, that are clearly NOT from around here…there are amazing, accurate predictions or premonitions too, from an intelligence unlike anyone on earth.

All ascension symptoms such as ringing in ears, physical sensations, lucid unrealistically real dreams (virtual reality), emotional level shifts – are all attunements to the spirit team who are with us, within us, showing us through sights, sounds, taste, smell, touch, feeling that there is every possibility that whatever we see, sense, taste, touch, smell or feel is not from around us but a creation of our mind.

It is impossible for the multidimensional team running this reality show to know each and everything about past, present or future, but they do, second to second, which is not possible if the past-present-future, were all illusion. Even the accuracy of astrology, numerology, tarot, runes, I-ching, any Oracle is not possible unless reality was an information based binary coded program of yin and yang, 0 and 1, like a morse code.

“If real is what you can feel, smell, taste and see, then real is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain.” (Morpheus in the Matrix).

I am convinced that the reality we are living in is merely a simulation as witnessed numerous times. Every time I ask for a clear sign I receive exactly that, people manifesting directly out of third eye, saying, wearing, doing, writing, emailing what is programmed in third eye as if they popped out of my mind. Even crazy things, nice things, stupid things, dangerous things, ‘bad’ things, next to impossible things….any kind of ‘things’ manifesting from my mind, quite regrettably at times.

But with this is the frustration that noone around seems to understand this simple point, all I hear is the same old ‘stuff’ learnt from spiritual and religious matrix – the same thing regurgiated all the time by everyone – the same Osho says this, Jesus said that, Krishna said this, Buddha said that. People are happy with the information supplied from others AROUND them, second hand (and possibly from the Matrix), and not interested in any direct channeling, any direct connection with higher self or any personal experience or realization. Ironically even the movie Matrix is from the Matrix, from the world around us – a digital reminder that we are ‘in it’ and knowing this does not set us free.

Even if we for one second believe in the ascended masters from world religions, if Jesus said we shall know the truth and the truth shall set us free – then is this truth going to be given to us by someone else, or do we have to find out for ourselves?

It appears as if noone around wants to know the truth for themselves, or leave the matrix and be free. The biggest scientists say they are convinced we are in a digital simulation. It is like the Matrix knows, tells us like the Oracle did to Neo, all about the Matrix, and yet, nothing changes.

In this world everyone just wants to be happy over here in the simulation and not even ask why we are here, how this is simulated, and who created us, to know where are we from. If this is a simulation, why can we not conquer it, conquer our senses, make it more magical – not to attract money or love, but to ascend, to break the rules of physicality. But even the most powerful psychics, channels, healers who are my friends (and a number of them come to mind) – have told me very clearly – ‘what is the use of magic unless we use it professionally (paid or free) to heal others’, they would rather use their powers limitedly to enjoy life and have friends and clients. The whole idea reinforced by them is that we are simply here to help each other go through the struggles of life with some kindness and sympathy, which is great, but not enough. Even in ashrams for yoga and meditation, it is the same crowd, people escaping struggles of life, seeking blessings and love for healing their often broken hearts, disillusioned and sad souls bowing down to the feet of the guru in search of some favours. Not seekers of truth.

It appears that all people want to hear are positive things that keep them busy, numb, dumb and at peace in the illusion. All they want is a bit of happiness, a calm moment, a bit of breath, a little relaxation, someone to help them and love them. People also need enough money or work to get by and fill their mundane lives up with some nice things to do. But love is the main emotional comfort people seek, like innocent babies sleeping in the womb of the mother, in the matrix. That comfortable sleep to them is freedom, enlightenment, joy, fulfillment, peace, nirvana, moksha and liberation.

If this world is a dream and all is mind, then naturally we want to wake up, right? But no, we want to use spirituality to sleep better, to continue this dream and afraid of the unknown, the awakening.

In that case how are we any better than people who are religious slaves, believers who follow traditions without questioning because they are afraid of retribution and wrath of God who will send them to hell if they disobey? How can we even think of worshipping a creator who will kill us, harm us, or destroy us unless we obey him, love him, believe and be controlled by him – a devil? Similarly for those of us who are spiritual how are we so afraid of leaving behind this world illusion, of releasing ourselves from ignorance, from bondage, from false reality? Are we afraid of leaving the known?

The quote comes to mind from Morpheus in the Matrix, ‘You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inert, so hopelessly dependent on the system that they will fight to protect it.’

Surely if the world is an illusion of our mind then we all who know this should try to seek truth, not remain in illusion. At least some of us should be spiritual mystics embarking on a quest of self-discovery. Yet at the most what I know for sure my friends and acquaintainces on earth will keep repeating non-chalantly and robotically as if deeply programmed by their semi-religious scriptures and new-age quotes is:

– we need to be happy here in maya,

– maya is the ultimate truth,

– there is no higher self,

– no higher reality, no freedom, no escape

– stay happy and grateful with little things here itself

– just live a simple life, no need for magic/yogic powers, be a ‘muggle’

– you are not going anywhere, stay here and do what is told

– eat food, no trying to find if food is illusion by yoga

– sex and relationship are necessary, no interest in ascetic path of real yoga

– no interest in any telepathy, telekinesis, any other yogic powers to confirm or witness the illusion of reality

– believe in yogis and masters who have conquered their senses and freed themselves but do not want to do it themselves

– worship ascended masters and devas/ devis but not interested in ascending themselves, just want to use their blessings or energy to ‘heal’ their life, attract love, health, goodwill, abundance and remain living in illusion

– interested in beautification, and objects, images that are nice to ‘feel good’ about themselves but not in anything that awakens them, shows them the mirror

– deeply craving for something to feel good about, hate being unhappy, depressed, upset or uncomfortable about anything, no matter how serious, how important to focus on, how necessary to awaken through truth

– rigid mindset, want only to repeat what they have learnt from other new-age people, spiritual news-feed, no personal direct experience or interest in having one- want you to always agree with them (another form of control)

People in general do not want to be reminded that the world is not ok, there is something not right about this…we are supposed to question reality. If we are projecting this world, then of course something is wrong within us, or why are we manifesting an evil world and corrupt system?

I look within myself, I need to know how I created this universe, although it has to be damn egoistic to think so, but this is what the Matrix says – we are all creators – microcosm-macrocosm. Aren’t we all one?

In a dream are we all apparently different organisms, talking to each other, living life but inherently connected in the same consciousness, because the same person/ being/ organism is the dreamer? So if we are all creators, we manifest this universe, then nothing egoistic or grand about it – because we are dreaming, all asleep.

But no we want to blame the ‘system’ and be angry at system and say we are all ‘victims’ and ‘controlled’ by our earth system – the system of politics, religion, economy, education, taxation….government.

Let us assume we are victims. If we are victims and we have not manifested our reality, then why are we saying we create our own reality, this make no sense. If we create our own reality, we must be victims of a self-created system, one that we are trying to desperately change. Conversely if we are controlled by others, and are victims of an evil system, why are we not ready to unravel this acute reptilian/ racial ‘conspiracy’ theory. Why are some races ruling the world and preventing ascension? Aren’t they supposed to be projections of our innermost fear from a deeper level of self-witnessing, if the universe is indeed within us? If not then we must be in an ‘AI’ controlled artificial computer simulation created by them or their masters and not in a self-created universe. We already know we are in a digital hologram manifesting and seamlessly propagating out of a sea-shell. This is disturbing and it should be.

Either way we have to find out and on an urgent basis release ourselves from our fears, our slavery, our ignorance and our hopeless dependency on comfortable illusions and unconscious sleep.

Why are we not ready to make an inner change, to shift our frequency, to love TRUTH, why are we in false reality and happy about it? Is ignorance bilss and are we mere seekers of some sort of emotional gratification, sensual comfort, pleasure, relationship harmony and mental peace to keep continuing our ‘story’ on earth? Or are we seekers of truth?

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Star Races: Alderbarans


As we leave our frailities and imperfections of human self and release ourselves from the illusion of this earth-shan that we are constantly manipulating with our mind, we awaken to new ascended levels that are sometimes galactic in consciousness. On earth we have been unclear about the existence of aliens so far, although speculated but seldom proven in physicality. However multidimensional experiences have been phenomenal especially among those with spiritual crown chakra awakening symptoms. Almost all of this is channeled information and not of my direct thoughts, book reading, personal experiences or personal ideas.

Alderbarans are galactic ascended civilisations in higher dimension of the multi-verse. There are many ascended levels in the multi-verse above our present or current level of existence in this earth – matrix life where we are tightly controlled, aped and kept in place. Once free we experience the galactic levels of consciousness that we so far were unable to reach out to in physicality inspite of scientific advancements and explorations.

Alderbarans reside in loci around the upper middle parts of the galactic spiral. Their spaceships are egg shaped and open up and split into two halves when unlocked and separate out in two different directions. That is because they reside upon planets on two sides of space.

How to Identify

They are tall and large, have curved cheekbones and sullen cheeks. Their chests are set deeper set than their shoulders. Their chins are rounded off to thir lips that are short. They do not like talking but listen well and thoughtfuly. Their heads are stretched in front of their shoulders. They have upwards angled lacerations of both sides of their face from their chins to thier eyes and one from above their nose to the crown where their third eye is. They have a crest on their heads reaching out and protruding to the front. Their nostrils are medium sized. Their skins are patterned.

Inner Traits

They are respectful of others and ultra-sensitive. They open portals before them. They are detached and observant. They can also fly astrally to other planets. They understand both sides of each situation in relationships. They unconsciously feel hurt but they ignore it. They have intellectually let go of pride. They believe in feminine and masculine balance fitting into a system of mutual understanding. They journey through their third eye into our hologram as they can also live multidimensionally and materialise or incarnate into our planatery matrix mixing with people around us. They can cast away lies through discernment. Unlike lower dimensional beings they are not seekers of food or sexual energy from the hologram. They enjoy meditation and work with sushumna naadi. They are of service to others. They are part of the intergalactic council.

Human Ego and Ascension

All of us have it – this human ego, especially myself.

What is preventing our Ascension, our leaving the Matrix, the maya…our time here on earth, this hologram, this virtual prison in which we are literally trapped all the time, knowing we live in illusion but still ‘suffering’ through it. Why?

If we realy were divine beings and our spirit was one then why is it that this spirit is seen or perceived as a human spirit. Look at the images of all the Ascended masters, all human beings…most of them pictured as mythological angels with human bodies and bird wings, we borrow those wings don’t we from other animals, and pretend that we can also fly, one day, without fuel and not just in dreams within dremas (I wanted to write deams but it came our as dramas, hence dremas) but in this dream itself, this dream we woke up in today, this morning in our bedrooms.

Those images we see of heroes, of the past, or myths and legends, of magically perfect human beings, our aspiration to be at the center of the universe, to say we are one with the father God, the mother Goddess, one with all there is, the alpha, the Omega, since childhood we are programmed to think and respect all those spiritual philosophies of human ascension. And seeing ascended masters as human beings who are perfect, pure presence, divine and radiant, calm and loving, unconditional – but human.

What if that was keeping us from our Ascension, our bondage to our human and superhuman forms. Our superheroes and ascended self as devatas, devas, angels with wings in human bodies. So personifying ourselves as angels, we fail to understand who we actually are. And here is the hard truth. Inspite of all our ego and vanity as human beings, regardless of how popular we become in spirituality, how positive our auras glow and how we shine in our beauty and bliss, of all our high vibrations and chakra raising frequencies of light, sound and bliss, what if we are not that great, what if we are not that superior to rest of creation, what if we are not any kind of divine soul or spirits but fallen ones – demons. Yes even demons have chakras, even they have higher self, even they are magical, eloquent, beautiful, with excellent personalities, fine taste, charm, charisma and radiant auras.

In my dreams I once saw a very popular human master, I had to run really fast as it was not a dream but a very lucid phenomena, where I ran at superspeed and went down in a subway, down into earth, in an underworld, where a lot of humans lived and there I saw one of the ascended masters, a very popular guru and he was communicating telepathically with me as most spirits do guiding me to read about ceremonial magick in an astral library where I went to get a book. It was not a place I felt to be divine at all and the librarian said I am not supposed to be here and I went back to earth. I wondered if these are such amazing ascended masters and powerful spiritual men with so many decades of meditation, such minimal, simple lives, such higher powers, brilliant intellect and wonderful books, how can it be they are in underground. In my reading of ceremonial magick, I was impressed, the Wiccan magick and rituals take much from it, but in all these rituals it still feels hollow as if we are still working with energy around us, the hologram. Those chants and sermons, speeches and signs, kaballah, numerology, astrology, and tarot, have been what I have learnt all my life since childhood in my rigid fascination with the occult. Knowledge.

So I ask myself what if our visualisation of ourselves as humans, as all of us ascending as human beings in flawed. What if our biggest barrier to ascension is our ego, our fascination with spiritual heights and spiritual glory and power, and our interest in rising up like angels in human form through our magical paths, our religions, our spiritual traditions, our concrete and stone circles and churches, temples and architectures that instill pride – our ego based artificial titles and thrones of power.

Does any other animal have any of those spiritual traditions, those spiritual cravings of rising and uniting with a deity, a higher self? No they are like children. Very simple, very pure. They do not have a mind like we do as humans. But what is our mind? is it something that makes us superior to those other animals, or plants. Just because we have a good mind to manipulate energy, to use energy at our will, to take energy from earth, to harness, to consume energy, to play with energy, to make things, houses, jobs, money…to visualise to manifest – does that make us superior to the rest of the other species? Or does that simply make us better demons, more conscious demons, more awakened demons, more powerful demons.

What if humans are not going for ascension at all but going to learn lessons, lessons that we cannot learn until we fall. What if we are here in this simulation or matrix for a reason, to learn some lessons, to bring our big egos down. To learn to stop projecting this ‘aura’ around us, one of power, one of self-love focused on selfies and hedonism, where we look so divine, one of our face surrounded with a halo around it, radiating peaceful and positive vibrations, with beautiful bodies, and for one second, realize the depths to which we have fallen in our human life. For as monkeys and apes we probably were a little more in alignment with nature. Maybe we can return to that at our very best attempt to not destroy our planet any longer.

I see myself and I see all humans and I see us all having the same basic nature, we all eat, go to the toilet, we consume nature, we have bodies, that keeps us humble, that keeps us down in the realisation that we are not superior and not ascended in any way but still bound to the rules and regulations of the matrix, the laws of physicality. However when we additionally see the impact we are having on the planet as a civilisation, by even using this computer, I know there is suffering in it, not mine – but of others, there are so many animals killed for it, in the LCD screen itself of our mobiles, tablets, laptops, the gelatin in the seat of the bicycle I purchased second hand, the leather in our car seats, the paint we use, the paper in the books and tarot cards made of cut trees ….we know it, we do not want it…we want to be less harmful and save the world, but the fact is we have fallen so very deep, so very down, so low in frequency as a civilisation, that even saying this fact out loud, makes other humans angry.

We want to hear uplifting things, about humans, that we are doing so much to save the world, to heal the world, to make it a better place, to realize our faults and make a difference. This ‘so much that we do’ that we are ‘trying’, is our ego talking. We want to make a very big deal about ourselves as humans and glorify the work we do. But look at us, fallen monkeys, fallen apes we are, wearing clothes unlike the chimpanzees who resemble us. This is who we are.

So if we meditate it should be to lower our ego, to be down to earth, to realize who we are really. Nothing great, nothing larger than life, nothing to outshine other species on the planet, not with any kind of bird wings around us, simply apes, simply human – homo sapiens and monkeys gone all wrong, evolving negatively in our science and spirituality that is ego centric. And the truth is we are in a simulation and learning our lessons, some very harsh ones. With this realisation of who we are and where we are, maybe just a bit of ascension may be possible, if we can stop being demons first, a bit less negative than the rogue monkeys and destructive apes that we have become.

If our human and non-human superiority complex is our fall, then maybe we can rise again through humility, through consciousness and awareness that we are not in any way greater than any other being on this planet. May our meditation make us humble instead of imagining we are vessels of compassion spreading love to the universe and healing the universe with flowers of light emerging from our auras and blessing the world with our inner light, may we simply try to not be evil first or to be less evil if possible.

This heart opening does not happen easily, we will see our egoes and we will resist it, claiming our sovergneity, our free will, our place in a heavenly realm that our ancestors and ascended visualisations have promised is awaiting us when we leave the planet to be united with the higher self. First let us unite with the lower self, the planet and its humble species that exist here before we embrace our star families and the alien worlds that we aspire to reach out to in our scientific-spiritual ‘pseudo’ quests and adventures our our mind. Afterall why is it that no aliens are there coming in spaceships to planet earth if there are billions of planets around us – obviously because we are in a simulation, it is not real, it is a mirage and a dreamworld, infinity, this space-time continuum, universe and we are learing some very hard truths living in the holgram of earth-shan with our insectoid and reptilian relatives who are human in body all around us keeping us highly involved within this program.

Our ascension is not happening from our computer screens by semi-intellectual pondering over the mysteries of the universe and learning more and more complex terms and jargons from our scientific-spiritual circles, lineages, masters and guides, traditions, cultures and scriptures full of tonnes of information. Because all this is merely information – mind, matrix, not the heart. Our heart is where ascension happens, and it opens because we are not visualising any greatness in our aura, any colourful vibrations, simply seeing ourselves as who we really are, as creatures on earth, no greater than any other. Because first we need to see who we are in the ordinary unconscious day to day existence we are trapped in at the mundane level, as these ape men and women wearing clothes, looking good, imagining bird wings growing from our shoulders and flying into the skies of heaven, as those apes meditating and uniting with light, turning into light beings, merging with and meandering within the hologram around us, the universe, infinity – fluttering like fairies on earth in the cycles of spring, summer, autumn winter and global warming, healing the planet, flying in the astral skies of space and infinity, light and free, watching the galaxies appear and disappear, in trancendental meditations having those experiences that great yogis talk about after years and decades of meditation – the matrix showing us what it is. And opening our eyes after our flights of fancy and realising we are still here. Home?

Ascended Masters

The nature of Maya is whatever we imagine becomes real for us. You can call this system God, Maya, Matrix, Goddess, Universe, Law of Attraction, Manifestation, Magick, even Devil (as some people call anything manifested without their chosen God ‘s name as Devil’s work – these people call everything that is not of their religion as ‘devil’).

Instead of confusing ourselves with ignorant themes of God/ Goddess and Devil, Angels and Demons, Faeries and Sphinx passed second hand by various religions and civilisations, life becomes very simple if we believe God to be good and Devil to be evil. We basically see non-harming as divine and harming as demonic, our own behavior, way of life, consciousness. There is no intellectualisation of anything or personification of good or evil here in any form as Krishna or Kansa, Jesus or Satan…just a return to nature and a basic common-sense way of living ethically. If you need God or commandments or Gita and Bible to know basic things such as do not kill or harm, obviously you are not ready for Ascension.

Both good or bad are aspects of Maya. Benovelent and Maleficient. Both are creations of mind. We can be good or we can be evil. So which God are we looking for outside? Which Krishna, which Jesus, which Laxmi…I have no clue about those Gods and Goddesses as these are purely fables we read or learn from others, second hand. If we see any of them in dreams or astral travel or if they become manifest – ‘prakat’ – it is still our mind. Our mind can manifest anything, anyone, even God or Goddesses. That is the truth of illusion. This transcends religions. But the truth of yourself, who you are is within you. Noone can tell you that.

As I write this I can hear a radio static in my right ear. This means I am connected to another dimensonal frequency, the same one that relays me constant messages, things about past, present and future, so very accurately. It is a bit like being Neo, in the four walls of his office on ‘earth’ the matrix as he works for Meta-Cortex (a fictional software giant). This is meaningful as cortex is the brain and meta is illusion, the mind not the brain is the creator. It is the mind and not the brain that is manifesting reality. The brain is merely the physical organ. But infact the physical body, this one along with the brain can also be an ilusion, a simulation, although it is apparently very real. We feed it and look after our body, we care for our body, beautify it, dress it up, keep it clean. What if the body was not real and was just a projection of the mind, the meta-cortex…. which brings me again to the scene of the Matrix where Neo receives a phonecall from Morpheous and he is guided about what is around him, which enclosure is empty, where to run when the agents appear, when to ‘jump’ off the building (of course he did not).

What if I told you I had my phonecall already? And I did not jump. Everytime I have not followed the voice, of this person contacting me, this one who is always disclosing everything before it happens, I have found myself even more entangled in maya. The entire play of whatever was about to manifest in my life was played out before me very clearly, through my own body, to show me what is Maya, to help me identify Maya when I see Maya. That is how powerful masters are, the ones who know better, the ones who can awaken and guide us out of the Matrix – if we so choose, if we are the One, if we take the Red pill.

With the help of the Oracle, the program that tells us what is going on in past, present future, we survive in the Matrix, but we do not escape it through predictions. The masters can help us here as well, to help us live more comfortably, to heal, to be joyous, to be happy, prosperous, calm, protected, free of negativity, to plan our future here on ‘new earth’, to be prepared for things to come. We are all equally connected to the Source afterall.

I know what you are thinking – ‘you are not the One’. You would rather live happily within the matrix and help others around you, focus on loving kindness and peace. And let the ones who are Ascended masters, guide you to spread the love, by living here itself as embodied consciousness, with love andl light as your mission in this earth-shan, the hologram. This is your choice if it be so. Blue pill or Red. Those who want to live on in the hologram carry on as usual by taking the Blue pill, and using the energy of the higher self to heal yourself and the world. Simple and easy. Just relax and receive. The world is an illusion but, nevermind, the more important thing is, you are safe, you are alive, you are happy, your children are fine, and the world has not ended (fortunately or unfortunately). This is exactly what I believed in. So why do I not believe in it any longer?

Imagine your chakras and therefore your body and everything manifesting around it is connected to a Source (which is of course a computer like simulator). Through this system this world around manifesting seamlessly as if it is all ‘natural’. You see the fibonacci everywhere in nature, wonder sometimes about the holographic structure of reality, then you make yourself a cup of tea again and go on with your matrix life, knowing fully well that it is an illusion, how else did the person appear when you thought of him or her? It must be your mind.

But simply knowing this does not free you. You are still here, you still wake up in your bed and the dream of waking up continues. You are still ground-crew. You are not in your ship – on your way out of the hologram of earth. Neither are you suddenly out of this world and into another (hopefully higher) plane of existence.

Like Neo you know there is something wrong with this world. It is vaguely uninteresting at best, evil at worst, insignificant and dreamlike most of the time. You are not attached to it, not after anything material or sexual, or even spiritual, or anything whatsoever. You know you are not from this world, but you carry on anyways. You do not harm. You want to be good. But you also want to know the truth, unlike others – those who are blissfully ignorant and want to keep on repeating the same everyday reality again and again…those who do not want to wake up. You are different, you want to wake up because you care for Truth and nothing but the Truth.

Not that you do not care about the world, its horrible evils, about saving the world…but you are thankfully concerned about a bigger evil than what eyes can perceive, the system that is controlling this reality show. Not the political system. Not the economic system. Not the food system. Not the police, court or legal systems. No. Those are just twists and turns generated by the overall computer program system, to keep you busy in this show, to keep you ‘engaged’, in news, current affairs, world process, climate change, coronaviruses, wars, terrorism, injustices, your personal problems in the midst of it all, and your cup of tea… with the promise of a savior, The One who will heal the world, save the people, the animals, keep the show running – the Matrix reloaded if you call it so. That Kalki Krishna, Mahadi, Jesus’s second coming, Ashtar, Sananda, Sanata Kumara, Goddess, Shakti, Shekina, Magdelena, Kali, Avatar, Mahavtar, Archangel Micheal, Buddha, that – The One. The Oracle had prohecised the return of this great Ascended Master, or the team of masters, the Higher Self – that is You. You can change the world. Or you can wake up and return to yourself, the real You who is not this body, not this mind, not here in this world, no longer lost in illusion. What do you do?

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